As I draw ever nearer to the day that I go live, my nerves are rearing their ugly little heads. It's hard to quiet the internal critic, the fears, the self doubt. But I tell myself to press on!
While I worry over whether anyone will like the jewelry I make as much as I do, I tell myself to press on. While the internal narrative tells me that everyone is tired of seeing your "latest venture," and rolling their eyes over the fact that I can't make up my mind, I tell myself to press on. While the little naysayer on my shoulder tells me that my pieces aren't good enough, or that nobody will pay what I think it's worth, I tell myself to press on.
I press on because I have to. The urge in me to create simply can't be suppressed. What I've come to realize though, is that I don't want to suppress it. And the negative thoughts? The naysayers? The eye rollers? Who cares!???!?! Those who love me will support me. Those who are comfortable in their own skin, who are doing what they love, and seeking their own dreams, will understand my plight. So I press on. I press on in search of something that fulfills me outside of being a wife and a mother. I press on in search of stretching myself to reach heights I only thought were possible in my dreams.
I press on because I'm ready to fly. Will you come along for the ride?
And just for fun...a peek at a pair of earrings I've recently made...